[TALK] "..because we are H.O.T fans" article

utte86

I found this article on a web, and I dunno where to put~~ so just put it down on this section~~
The original article is on mandarin, I translated it, and sorry for the bad english~~ T_T

“Although our hearts are still one, but each of them has gone on the separate ways…”

We’ve been waiting for such a long time, so long that we’ve forgotten a lot of things.

Hee Jun, who always has his warming smile on his face, has always looking strong. He sings the powerful rock music that made all of us think that he is the strongest amongst all.

But, we’ve forgotten that, he is actually a very fragile person. When he sings the song that he wrote for the guys (refer to h.o.t) he cried, he always only has 4 back dancer. His heart still remains at the time where they were together…. Before he left (for the services), he said: don’t leave me, if you change your heart then all you are liars, betrayers, idiots, cowards…

Oppa, we knew how you feel… Didn’t we make a promise before? When you’re back here with us, we would let you see oceans of white colored balloons…

Though he could be funny at times, but, because most of the time he doesn’t smile, a lot of people thinks that he is a cold blooded person.

But, we’ve forgotten that, he is a caring person. It’s just that he couldn’t express things in words. He would kindly ask the fans that have been waiting outside of his house to go home sooner once they feel cold. He used 3 million to buy 3 songs of H.O.T just because we want to hear it. He can smile saying, “I’m H.O.T’s Jang Woo Hyuk,”

Oppa, it’s been quite some time that we didn’t see each other. I’ve been telling myself that you would do well; even I knew that it’s just a lie to comfort myself. I’ve been praying that you would live well, but what I see is that you’ve become so skinny… My heart hurts… If we really did something wrong, then shouldn’t you just blame it on us and not making him suffer?

Tony, who made us feel that he doesn’t care about a thing.

But, we’ve forgotten that he is a sensitive person. He remembers every single thing that got something to do with H.O.T. Because of one word, he could cry out loud in Guerilla Concert. He said, “I don’t mind if you all like other handsome and pretty singers, but please don’t leave us behind,” He also wrote, “We have to see each other again in heaven, that way, we could be together forever…,”

Oppa, maybe you don’t know that we won’t be able to leave someone that we love so much… We promised that we would meet again in heaven someday…

Kang Ta who has always been receiving the blame, he would just smile at us, making us forget that he is actually not that strong enough…

Don’t you all remember? When he went to buy food for us? When he gives us his umbrellas just because he afraid we would caught in cold when it’s raining. When he sees us crying, he said, “Don’t cry, I love all you…,”

Oppa, my heart hurts knowing you’ve been forcing yourself to smile when people badmouthing you, you don’t even try to explain a thing…

Jae Won who has been live peacefully

But we’ve forgotten that he has his own pride. He gets angry of himself when he did some mistake in the last concert. In his downtime, he bravely announced, “This album is not succeed, I, Lee Jae Won, withdraw from entertainment world,”

Oppa, now we’ve understand that this way is the happiest way…

Five people, three people or even alone… From past until now, H.O.T remains undefeatable.

But we’ve forgotten that the separation hurts every of them…

How it feels being betrayed by the loved ones, how it feels not being able to explain a thing when you’ve been blamed on, being put aside, being looked down by others… How does it feel?

6 years, it’s been 6 years… Ever since then, we’ve lost everything… No one has been able to helps us to speak up, so everyone thinks that we can be bullied. So, they keep doing the bad things and giving the responsibilities to us… So, they dare to shout at us, again and again…

It’s hurting… it’s exhausting… but, because we are H.O.T’s fans, we have to be brave; because we are H.O.T’s fans, we cannot lose to others; because we are H.O.T’s fans, so we cannot lose hopes… Just cry out loud when we feel exhausted, then dry up your tears and stand up once again…

We are not blinded, we are not insane, and we are merely just being touched by the innocence and kindness of the five guys. So, we would be together as one forever…

credit : cwwan
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kangtagreen27 · Posted: Mon Mar 24, 2008 6:21 pm Post subject:

This can go into our new section: From Fan.

http://www.mfbb.net/dth/viewforum.php?f=30

I'll move this thread later.

Thanks for translating and posting. I've read the whole thing, but I'll respond to the article later. It was very nice. Some things even I did not know about. Thanks again.
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JaeSeung · Posted: Mon Mar 24, 2008 10:36 pm Post subject:

This is really touching. Thank you so much for translating this for us.

ElementalMissHap · Posted: Mon Mar 24, 2008 11:50 pm Post subject:

IN OUR HEARTS AND MINDS ALWAYS!!!

...MINE AT LEAST
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LunaHeeJun · Posted: Fri Apr 18, 2008 2:25 am Post subject:

A very touching article. Also very real, i know Hee Jun and KangTa must have been hurt the most, since the "fans" mostly blamed them for H.O.T's break up and i know they must have felt betrayed. No one has the right to blame the break up on neither member since no one knows the exact cause of it. Whatever the reason was, it doesn't matter as true fans i feel we should continue to support them, love them and be proud of everything they have achived as a group and as individuals.

I know it must have been hard for all of them, putting that idol image behind and trying to start over, but i think Hee Jun had it the worst, i remember asking a "fan" why they were angry at Hee Jun and she told me that: "Since he choose to sing rock music it will be harder to see them together again, he's selfish, i bet he wanted the group to break up so he can sing his rock music, he deserves everything his anti's throw at him"

I was apalled and angry, i don't remember half of what i told her that day, but it was long and maybe harsh. Ignorant people like her is the reason Hee Jun went through so much pain, but against all odds he didn't give up and found the strenght to come out on top, never giving up on his passion for music. For that we must thank his family, friends and his truely loyal fans.
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the-resa- · Posted: Thu May 01, 2008 2:22 am Post subject:

i don't think i will leave h.o.t. behind. i don't think i CAN leave them behind.

they're really a band which i think, even if i were to get so old and not remember anything, i'd remember them.

the part where tony said "we have to see each other in heaven again" is really sad. i wanna cry.

thanks for sharing this.

brownorange · Catching Up Joined: 11 Apr 2006 Posts: 72

“This album is not succeed, I, Lee Jae Won, withdraw from entertainment world,”[quote]

When did jae won say that?!!!

utte86 · Posted: Sun Jul 20, 2008 6:39 am Post subject:

Nocturne Prince · Posted: Sun Dec 28, 2008 2:49 am Post subject:

... Together as one forever...

O...it's really touching...

Vio · Posted: Fri Jan 09, 2009 9:07 am Post subject:

I don't really think that we can blame anyone, not even "bad" fans, over these things. I don't think there ARE bad fans or good fans; just people who get a certain idea and people who don't, and even those can change given time. We are all fans in our own way and have a different kind of love to show to those people that we feel are truly special. I feel like this needs to be said, so we can all at least share some sort of understanding... besides H.O.T., I mean...

Thank you for posting this... halfway through I was already crying and the expectations for a fan are set high. I find out about H.O.T 7 years after their break-up and am somehow trying to keep up XD I wonder if I can BE a fan.. since I haven't been there the entire while, but everything they did and the music they made, solo and together, I find amazingly appealing... to my soul, in a way... or just to daily life.

so, it seems, we must stand strong for H.O.T. and everything else... Because we came to know people like them, we can't forget what they taught us and be strong? Is that it? Or something like that... One of the best suggestions I've had all my life XP

Nocturne Prince · Posted: Sat Jan 10, 2009 4:45 am Post subject:

Hmm... sorry... but yes there are bad fans. Or maybe you can say them selfish fans.

Like I said above, I did experience it my self. We both loved same band (Well, it's not H.O.T.), but she always blamed one of the member for everything he'd done. It's really heartbreaking when everyday she came up with something that can make you down about your idol.

It's kinda hard to tell this... It's been a long time ago...

Uh... kinda out of topic...

Sorry....
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